29 October 2017.

You left me, when I tried to seek for help. When I needed someone to lift me up, to bring back the spirit in me. 

You left me, when I have nothing. When I’m at the lowest point of my life, when I thought you’re the only source of happiness I have.

You left me, when I feel at the weakest, when I thought you would be the strength to my soul.

I thought you accept everything about me, all my flaws, all my imperfections, all my insecurities. I thought after all the efforts and love I gave, you'd be happy. 

But I was wrong. You left me, alone, when I’m at the bottom, when I have no reason to live anymore. When I couldn't differentiate what is right and wrong anymore. 

But, never mind, I never put the blame on you or anyone. Because after all, all I have is myself. I'm sorry for being weak.

I hope when the time comes, I can see you smile for me again. 

May Allah strengthen my faith to endure all these pain inside me.

Good bye for now.